First of all, i hope you all are doing well.
I am really sorry, for letting out some Groupgifts and Events, but i was going through some tough times.
I had/have some health issues, then my notebook "literally burned out" and i "just" felt overrun from life.
Well, of course, there is much more important "things" then Secondlife. For an Example - Real Life :P.
As crazy as it sounds, sometimes all i want to be - is my avatar. Without pain, without emotions and without age.
Yeah, please no pity for me - i am already drowning in self-pity.
But know what, i am allowing myself to be sad and self-pity. Not longer then 23 Minutes per day. That´s enough. Every Second, Minute, Hour - more is just a waste of time.
So, after my 23 Minutes of "whining, crying, stupid questions like-> why me, oh lord why me", i put myself together. Starting to go back into my daily routine. Yoga, my Dogs, Family, Work, Eat, Powernaps, Secondlife, Sleep and repeat.
Some days are easier then others, as we all know and it´s not possible to be always "strong".
But i can try, and i am willing to try. So i really really do hope to find my way back, not the old me, the person who i am today.
People often say to me: You do not look "sick", i wouldn`t noticed that - you never mention it.
Well, big news time:
I am not here to please or convince anybody.
Realtalk: So if you can`t see "Pain", no matter if its physical or psychological, then just shut the fuck up and show some empathy or get willing to get some empathy for other human beings.
Sorry, but i haven´t heard that there is a dresscode for "how to look best, if you are sick, beeing unwell, or in pain".
Maybe i opend up to much, today. But it felt like the right thing to do.